Lately, I’ve been feeling more balanced. I’m putting it down to the hormone free life post pill. I know I keep harping on about it BUT life feels much calmer without the highs and lows of putting artificial hormones into my body. As I feel calmer, I see things more clearly. I worry still but slightly less. I stressed about what if’s and what might. That’s no way to live. Relating back to PND and anxiety, I found myself constantly fretting over Finn and anything happening to him. If you are that stressed about it can you really be enjoying it. Motherhood is the most amazing, rollercoaster of an experience. The highs outweigh the lows. If you stop for a minute to realise how lucky you truly are.
Sometimes I stop, in the middle of an ordinary day, at something he’s said or an expression on his face and my heart literally feels like it’s about to burst inside my chest. I still can’t believe I made him. He came from me?
We all witnessed my crisis before turning 35. Would I go back to my twenties? NO!! Would I opt for a flat tummy, perky boobed, cellulite free version of myself over the joy my little Finn has brought me?? HELL NO!!
Sometimes it’s all about perspective and appreciating what we have when we have it. Don’t look back, don’t look forward. Live in the now. Remember what you are grateful for. At the end of a long, hard, not so good day, try to pick one thing that was good.